| I kind of forgot how eccentric I am.
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| stealing Sharayah's of course...
We
know that the law is spiritual but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to
sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do,
but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree
that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but
if is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is,
in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I
cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the
evil I do not want to do - this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do
not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me
that does it.
So I find this law at work: When I want to do
good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in
God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body,
waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the
law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who
will rescue me from the body of death? Thanks be to God - through Jesus
Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.
Romans 7:14-25
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| sometimes when you wake in the morning, you open your eyes only to close them again and fall back to sleep until the time comes where you actually do wake completely. I'd say this has been my spiritual experience as of late. I think I don't want God badly enough. I too easily cloud my eyes with other distractions and they dull my senses and lull me back to sleep. I wake momentarily, then I fall back to sleep. Then I wake momentarily, then I fall asleep again. I am not different enough. I accept the easy answers and do the easy things. Do I want to be different enough? I want to be part of the remnant... but what do I want the most? John Piper says that sin occurs when one's heart is not satisfied in God. When One does not believe God's promises, when one is not looking to God for their satisfaction but instead begins to look elsewhere for satisfaction. It is also a problem of unbelief. We don't believe God will really give us what is best. We don't really believe that God will deliver on what He says. |
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| so 2 things:
1- I'm reading Rob Bell's new book and it is really great.
2- and I bought Charlie Hall's cd finally and it is really great.
I think God is starting to open my eyes to Him. I don't want it to stop.
I've realized that I cannot truly appreciate beauty in the world until I am truly connected with God.
Then I see the beauty in all things.
I want to see the beauty and meaning in all things and for them to only point me back to Him.
My life's aspiration is to be one of those things that points people to Him.
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